ORGANIK!

REACTION

Going into class, I didn't know what to expect. I don't see myself as someone who has an artistic person. I showed the photography class the five photos I picked to show. I didn't know how they were going to be received. I had the thought in my head that all art has different appreciation. The first photo of my windowpane with a cactus behind it was the first one to be looked at. Mostly everyone liked it, but found the pin distracting from the overall picture. The second picture was the open window from my living room. People really enjoyed it and found it very romantic. The third picture was the buildings in Chile, people really liked this one and thought that the buildings was a nice touch and was very bright and detailed. The fourth picture was of the kitchen in my apartment. People really like the bright colors and the array of colors that were present, but found that was a lot of white space in the picture. The fifth picture was of the shoes drying on my windowpane. They enjoyed the colors and the light in the background. Everyone in the class liked different ones for different reasons.
i was very surprised by their reaction, the picture that I least liked was the one that most people really enjoyed. Also their critics were very constructive and I understood very well what were the things that they didn't find appealing about them. The only thing that I don't think that the class understood was the first picture. To me that pin is the most important thing in the world. I wouldn't be where I am right now, if it wasn't for the internship with the Cross-Cultural Leadership Center.

First Assignment

Having my first assignment for this class was to take 25 photos of "My Place in Santiago" and "Things that Draw my Eye and Interest Me". Having to do that then pick five was a difficult choice. I was able to reduce it to six, but then I couldn't figure out which one I had to take out. All the pictures I took were photos that I really enjoyed shooting. Also, most of the objects I took pictures of are important to me.




After taking my photos for class I was able to see that there are very beautiful things around Santiago and my own apartment.

2010 Chile!

I have been in Chile for a week now, and I <3> I wasn't prepared for it to be so cold, so I'm missing a couple things. In general Chile is AMAZING! I'm glad I came. It's amazes me that the Andes are right there, I can see them from the park that's by here. That is my view of the city and I am so blessed to have this opportunity to experience this.

Love liFe!

There are many things I have felt in the past month. I've felt freedom once again, I have seen that college is about experience. I want to go out and not be worried of what my boyfriend is going to think or say. I want to make out with random guys I meet at parties and just have fun with my friends and laugh about what happened last night. I have thought so much about what my next move is going to be? should i go study abroad? should I graduate in the Fall? I want to go to Spain and see the world! I want to taste new flavors.

I never have thought before or noticed how much a relationship takes so much of your time. After I broke up with Carlos I found out that school was actually fun, I was doing better then I have done before and I had more time to do the things I wanted to do instead of thinking what is my next move with Carlos and giving him my attention. I think it is so funny how better I am off with out him. Lali was right, even though he has been apart of my life for so long, it was time to let him go. Maybe I'll talk to him again in the future, but right now I see no point, it's not necessary to even think about it. I also realized that I was the only one putting effort into the relationship and he was just enjoying the ride. I deserve someone who is going to put in the effort to make me happy and put the same effort that I will put in myself. One day I will meet that person, one day.

There three main things I want to do before I graduate. I want to intern for the CCLC which would be the best thing ever in the world. The second thing is to study abroad for a year or a semester, I don't know yet, but I know I want to do something out of the ordinary. Also I want to do that internship at D.C. for the summer which I really wanted to do, but my GPA wasn't that great.

I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know that something is out there. I know that with what ever I do I will succeed to the fullest extent! Love life!

what's a woman to do?

I can't it's happening, I'm going to graduate. Nothing is going to get in my way, I have a tough time telling my parents that some of my classes aren't going the way they are suppose to, but I'm going to office hours to talk to my professor and it seems to be working, I got a B! on my POLS 413 class and I know that other people got higher scores, but I don't care because I'm AWESOME!

I'm kind of nervous, I have to apply to graduate in May and I know I'm putting it off. I don't know what I'm going to do after graduation? YICKS!!!!

I don't want to live with my parents or with a roommate, well maybe Amanda LOL. I have to look after myself, I can't depend on anyone but myself. Everything that I do from now on is for myself and even though I can ask for help when ever I need it I just know I have to do it.

I don't know what I'm going to do if they don't offer my classes next semester! stupid budget cuts!!!! So hopefully by April 13th they have my classes that i need ugh!

overview

For the past two weeks i have been thinking of my future, including my future in love, education, or just life in general. I sit down on my chair at the CCLC and i see all that is around me, everyone that knows my name, knows a little bit about me, even the people who i don't know very well. I feel so comfortable around that place, it's a home away from home. I want to do so much at Chico State, I want to do things I never thought I would want to do like MUN, be an intern for the CCLC.

In High School, I got into ASB my senior year and i felt that I missed out in a lot not joining sooner. Now in college I want to explore I want to do so many things in a year and I know it seems like a lot, but I want to do it all. I want to graduate on time and I want to start my life and rejoin the population of San Jose, go to Grad school and excel in my degree.

I see old classmates from High School and older classmates, living their lives, getting married, having kids, being in long lasting relationships and I can't help but think about it and I'm not scared like I used to be, but I want to do my living, I'm to young to to tied down. Fall in love with the right person and spend the rest of my life with them is at the top of my list and I feel I have found someone that maybe not now, but in the future could fill that part of my life. Damn, I'm thinking to much, I'm so ahead of the game right now. I need to think of the present, I'm afraid to think of the future because it never turns out the way I wish it could be.

It's scary to feel like this, everyday I let myself open up more to him and yes I am scared because the last time, it just hurt so much. I know I'm falling head over heals for him and I can't stop myself. Everytime I let myself love someone, God always seems to take them away from me. Maybe he has matured and maybe he has changed for the better, but now there's an obstacle between us. It's not the distance, its his hobby. I know I'm going to hate that damn sport! I'm going to hate it with a passion, but if you can't beat them, join them! =D

I don't know what the future holds for me, but with life the going the way it is, it pretty much going to just enjoy the ride.